I Cannot Believe It!

My BoS filled up.

Okay, yeah, I knew I was past the halfway point in it, and had a new book prepared to start maybe next year, when I graduate, but . . .

I filled up my Book. The heck. I never really expected it to actually happen. I started that book just into 2011, from scraps on notebook paper and Word documents from when I wasn't sure if I should call it a grimoire or what.

And now it's filled?

I'm not sure how to feel about that. This. Bleh. Don't get me wrong, I love my new one, too, I spent all this past summer ooh-ing and ahh-ing over it whenever I stopped by Wegmans with Grammy, but . . . I just thought that when I started using it, it's be 2013, and I'd still have pages left in my old Book. I mean, I started it . . . put in what I see as the essentials I should have in every BoS, but . . . I don't know. It feels funky that I'm actually using it, now.

Should I feel happy or sad? On one hand, yay! I'm started (literally) a new pae in my life. A fresh start, a chance to fix/edit and have something that reflects my practice ecaxtly as it is now. On the other hand, boo. I'm losing this wonderful snapshot of my life, that shows how I've evolved and changed and grown into my beliefs. I won't ever be able to add something new to that first BoS again.

So . . . conflicted. That really describes me right now. Though, it's a great time for it, rather than, say, two weeks from now. I prefer to bless my Book of Shadows under a Full Moon. As in, tomorrow. So maybe this is a sign. I see it as one, at least: coincidences seem a little too convenient, I think.

BB,

 - Janie L.